In the last week or so some close friends have brought and interesting idea to me as maybe an idea of where God might be leading me. I don’t want to reveal it quite yet as God and I are still working on it. Wrestling matches like these with God are not always pretty. Asking some hard questions about my talents/ gifts, my past and who I am and could this be right for me? Any ways just dumping the things on my mind (kind of) on you guys and gals.

Yesterday my father-in-law fired up his boat to charge the batteries and to take it out. It was a really nice day, plenty of sun shine and mid 60’s. We all went out and enjoyed the fresh air and the view of the nice homes that line the Halifax River in Daytona Beach. We went south and went out into the ocean at New Smyrna and as we came back in we noticed a small boat that had motor troubles. This was an older looking boat that really didn’t look that sea worthy, so we pulled out some ropes and towed them slowly about 3 or 4 miles to the bridge they were parked at. As we were towing them I asked my father-in-law if there was a comradely amongst boaters like there is amongst bikers and he told me no, most look the other way and never stop. Its really sad, if we wouldn’t have helped them who knows when they would have been helped. Why don’t we stop and help people any more? Do you think the Samaritan knew what he was getting into? Is it because it might cost us something? While we were towing the boat this other boat sped by and because of the waves it created clip that the rope was tided to popped off and smack our boat and left a little hole that will have to be fixed. I stinks that it happened but the reward of helping out weighs the price of fixing the little hole.

Think about it as you drive or walk or boat by someone that needs help. I know I will.

We have come to the conclusion that for the time being God has for us to be in Daytona Beach. I never thought that I would be out of vocational ministry, but I have found a church that I am going to volunteer my time and talents with and look for a job outside of ministry. I have an interview in the morning and a few more resumes out. I was talking with a friend last night and He reminded me that even though I might not see where God is leading, historically God is faithful. I never thought that thoughts would go through my mind that God had left us out to dry. I never thought that I would struggle with my faith. How easy we are to praise Him during the good times and quick to think He left us when things get bad. I have to admit that I bought into American Christianity and its lack of teaching on trials and tribulations as a part of our journey. Our definition of blessing and thinking that God is always going to provide well paying jobs and leave us with extra money in the back at the end of the month and that He isn’t with us if He doesn’t. My ideas of who God is and isn’t have changed but when faced with those changes I turned back to my American Christianity roots and being to wonder where God is? After a few good conversations with friends I think I’m close to getting back on track and remembering that God is here and is going to take care of us.